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| I have been approved!
well my dress has anyways...
so now i am going to chrysalis in a dress instead of a burlap sack...
i am happy.
what do you think my dress looks like?
°o ~
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»´¨`•»* * ~Tessagrace~ * *«•´¨`«
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| I have a level 2 concussion and i am not allowed to play any sports for a week at minimum. also these headaches im having will not go away for a long time....
the scary thing though is that if i get hit in the head at all during this week that i am recovering (thats anywhere from accidentatlly hitting my head on a table to someone throwing something at me) blood could leak into my head and it will instantly kill me....
Pray for God to give me strength as i must now sit and watch my favorite sport for a week. Pray that God will also protect me from hitting my head at any point this week.
However this is all in God's plan and his plan for me is perfect so im going to trust him all the way through. And i still stand in faith knowing that he can heal me completely at any point.
Thanks for your prayers so far....i have a catscan tomorrow.
love you all....and have an awesome week!
tessagrace
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| "oh man does my head hurt!"
Tessa looked up at the clock hoping that it would show a different time then what it was the last time she looked up. She had been studying for 6 hours now and she was about ready to go mad! She looked down at her notebook and tried to concentrate. The numbers on the page began to blur and the equations began to turn to nonsense in her mind.
She finally let out a frustrated sigh and slammed her book shut. "There should be a law against assigning this much homework over the weekend" Tessa heard her friend's words echo in her ears " when you sign in to StoneBridge you promise to give you life away for 4 years straight" and for Tessa this statement had now become a reality. here she was in the closing of her junior year and she was ready to throw in the towel. Her mom had finally stopped asking if she had any homework, she already knew the answer. "It just never lets up!" Tessa shouted to the ceiling. " i haven't had a life in 3 years!" Before she was able to spend time with her friends on the weekends now she found herself giving the same excuse "sorry i have too much homework" And now she had an addition to her work load. a very heavy addition called the SAT's. The test above all tests that defines your future!
Thinking about school and her work load made Tessa's head ache increase. she threw her book to the side of her bed and turned around to look out the window. her little brother was outside playing basketball with daniel. The two of them had become pretty good friends since Massanutten. A smile crossed her lips as she remembered the ride home from Kelsey's birthday party, Chase and Daniel were pretty much inseparable. They were either doing some sort of rap or playing off each others words, but they pretty much had become good friends.
IT was a weird thought to think that her little brother had slowly become part of her group. After Massanutten he began to be invited to parties and social events that she was going to. To Tessa this was a dream come true. She hated to see her little brother on the sidelines because he was a really cool person and people would of liked him if they took the time to see it. She prayed and prayed for Christian friends for him and finally God had answered her prayers, it didn't matter at all that it was her friends that God intended to befriend him.
Tessa turned away from the window and lay down on her bed. Her headache was getting worse. "If only that girl would of slid into home instead of plowing me over, i wouldn't be having this problem!" Her thoughts went back to thursday's game. The girl was half way down the base line when Tessa threw the ball back to the pitcher. And like any good base runner would do, she began the charge to steal home plate. The pitcher saw this and immediately threw the ball back to Tessa. Then it seemed as if things went into slow motion. Tessa crouched down in order to make the tag should the girl decide to slide. however, she did not. instead she kept running at full speed and slammed right into Tessa. Had Tessa been standing up the girl would have merely made her jump back a little, but since she was crouching the full force of her legs and torso rammed right into her. The last thing Tessa saw was the girls stomach because right when the runner hit her, Tessa's helmet slammed back into her head and knock her out. The force of the contact shoved Tessa completely onto her back. To the many on lookers and her own team mates it appeared as if she was dead. For she did not move. when they took her helmet off, her head rolled to the side as if she was dead. Finally, she began to come back to her senses. When she opened her eyes, pain shot from the back of her head to the front and her head began to pound. Tessa looked at her pitcher with tears streaming down her face, "did i get her out?" Their reply made her wish she had not endured this tackle, for their response was a hard hit to her heart. "no," they replied "you dropped the ball when she ran into you. i'm sorry"
Ever since that game her head throbbed and she began to feel nauseous. Her mother had told her she might have a minor concussion. Great! thats all i need. thought Tessa A concussion on top of a mountain of school work! She turned over on her stomach and shut her eyes.
O God! please help me. I have so much work to do and my head hurts so bad! please comfort me in this time and make these headaches stop!
Tessa looked over at the clock and saw time was slipping away. She pushed herself up and grabbed her Chemistry book. Help me Father. I cant do this on my own
Please pray for my head. I go to the doctor some time this week and i hope nothing is seriously wrong with it.
I stand in faith till then knowing that my God is a God of miracles and of power.
miss you all,
tessagrace
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| yesterday our bus got pulled over for going 54 in a 55 mph zone...... | | |
| my life..... is nothing what i thought it would be.
i'm not where i thought i would be....and it just seems i'm not going to get there....
my life dream of becoming an actress seems to be moving farther and farther away until now it seems as if it is out of reach.
am i to become an actress for the Lord?
am i to be a light in hollywood where the media is spreading the bulk of satan's lies?
will i ever understand why i must endure all of these trials?
why can't i seem to do anything right anymore?
where is my faith?
the faith i declare to have to others who listen. have i lost it in the midst of these trials?
why cant i hold on tight to my God?
instead i find my self falling back into the same sin that i promised myself to not fall into again.
what has happened to my heart?
the beautiful light that reflected from within my heart when i returned from costa rica has faded to a dying spark.
i threw dust on it thinking it would make it brighter...but instead the beauty turned to dust.
why, my heart, do you constantly turn from your Lover?
why do you find the need to turn to the world as if it would give you the satisfaction you need?
why, O why did i allow my heart to become so burdened?
Why have i been running away from my family all these years?
Why can i not stay in the arms of my Beloved?
why can i not hear Your voice, O God?
why can i no longer feel Your embrace?
have i turned my back on You completely?
Abba! block all the paths, except the one that leads to You and Your plan for my life!
do not let me stray any farther from you....i cannot do this on my own...
i have failed miserably and i do not know what to do....
Abba are you there?
do you hear me?
though my heart screams "Yes! He is there" my mind tells me You are not.
shut these human eyes Lord and open the eyes of my heart, so that i might walk towards You and not stumble.
i'm lost...and scared...i'm sinking in this quicksand of sin.
Abba...save me.......
please
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